Creating a Life Story

Is your life a story worth telling?  I re-read these words this morning when I was completing today's assignment for Priscilla Shirer's "Jonah:  Navigating a Life Interrupted."  I have had plenty of experiences in my life that are worth sharing, but at the end of the day, what sort of legacy am I creating?  Is this life one I'm proud of living, and sharing, and most importantly---telling?  Will I be proud to share this story with my family and friends, my babies?  And finally, if I'm not there yet, what will it take for me to create a life that has a story worth telling?

The last year has been quite a roller coaster ride---we have had a few long term houseguests, unemployment, a new company created, a pro card earned and professional competitions entered---and at the end of the day, one thing has been constant.  God has never turned his back on me, even when I've hit my breaking point.  In fact, I believe that it's at my breaking point that God has been able to do the most work with me.  One of the things I shared last week in my women's group is that I don't feel as though we should be ashamed or scared to tell our stories about how God has transformed us, precisely at a time where we felt the least useful to Him.  In fact, if someone had shared how God had used her during a time of crisis, I feel like I would have found encouragement in this rather than despair.  

What are you doing to create a story that is worth telling?

A few years ago, I created a list of 52 things I wanted to do in one year's time, which set some pretty unrealistic expectations on myself---a perfectionist who holds herself to such high standards that anything less feels like a failure.  About a year after that, while crossing some items off the list---learning how to surf, swimming in an ocean, making homemade preserves, and going to Build-A-Bear to name a few---I came to the realization that rather than try to accomplish these experiences at a frantic pace, it would be better to continually add items to the list throughout my life.  Some items won't always stay on the list, and some I'll discover aren't really priorities or desires of my heart.  Some may be unrealistic, and others may come to fruition thanks to the grace of God.  Regardless, these experiences are going to be creating MY story---a story worth telling.

Because I want to be completely honest and transparent, I'll share a few of the items I do plan on accomplishing this year.  I believe in accountability, to myself, to God, and to my family and friends.  With that being said, here are a few of my wishes to accomplish in 2014:

• Establish a yoga practice---attend or practice at home at least once weekly
• Read the collection of Jane Austen novels that's been taking up space in my bookcase for years
• Make S'mores with William---baking the graham crackers, making the marshmallows from scratch---for his first S'mores experience
• Visit family more often
• Rekindle my love of crafts, especially sewing
• Read the remainder of the Harry Potter books and watch the movies (this is something William and I have decided to do together)
• Read three books I loved in high school (okay, so a lot of the items so far are about reading...)
• Restore or repurpose a piece of furniture, using Pinterest inspiration
• Join a Bible study

I'm thrilled that I've already been able to accomplish one of the items on my list---joining a Bible study.  I had visited the website for a nearby church more times than I can count on one hand, and was thrilled to discover they were offering a study on the book of Jonah.  Priscilla Shirer is such an inspirational and well-spoken leader in women's ministry, and I'm fortunate to be studying both Jonah: Navigating a Life Interrupted, as well as Gideon: Your Weakness, God's Strength.  I know His timing on these two were perfect, as we're in a season where I feel as though these studies were written for me, personally.  Isn't that how it always is?

As I go about my week, I want to imprint these verses on my heart.  I want to create a life that is worth sharing my story, and I know I cannot (and do not want) to do it on my own strength.

 And now, Israel, what does the Lord your God ask of you but to fear the Lord your God, to walk in obedience to him, to love him, to serve the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul, and to observe the Lord’s commands and decrees that I am giving you today for your own good?

---Deuteronomy 10:12-13 (NIV)

New Year, New Me

Resolutions:  the act of determining upon an action or course of action.  I used to make New Year's resolutions.  I'd be pretty consistent for a short time, and then I'd forget about it.  I wasn't ever one of those people who resolved to lose 10 pounds, or quit smoking (because it's not something I've ever started!), but I have made resolutions to change attitudes, or lifestyle, or adopting certain behaviors.

One thing is consistent:  I repeatedly vow, and fail, that I'm going to blog consistently.  I do everything else consistently---pray, train, eat, bathe, love on my puppies, communicate with family and friends, attend church, volunteer---but sometimes the blank canvas and the vulnerability with which I try to put myself out there is MUCH scarier than making a lifestyle change.

I know it's not a contest.  I'm not going to have 18,000 followers, and run contests, or even ever become sponsored.  And I'm pretty okay with that.  Instead, I'm going to focus on the things that I love---baking, reading, praying, volunteering, my puppies, and my friends and family.

2013 is going to have lots of fun and exciting things going on.  New and scary and big adventures.  Lifestyle changes, family changes, fitness changes.  I'm going to have success in some areas, and areas for improvement, and hopefully enjoy the process.

I can promise complete honesty and transparency, but I don't know that I'm ever going to be one of those people who can blog five times a week, or at least until I have some new and exciting things to write about. :)

Until the next time...which may be tomorrow, or may be next week?!

Hanging On

Most of us have a tendency to hang on to one thing or another---I'm guilty of it.  I've kept jeans long past the point where they should have been worn, several sizes too big with holes in inappropriate places, held together by threads.  They were what I referred to as my "sweatpant jeans."  The denim had grown so soft that instead of the denim they originally were, it felt like brushed cotton.  Those jeans were my adult security blanket.  Not surprisingly, I disposed of those jeans when I bought my home, ended a relationship, and essentially became an adult.

I'm bringing up the topic of "hanging on" because I spent the past hour or so going through our master bathroom cupboards.  With a garbage bag.  Tossing make up that was purchased several years ago, old contact cases (if I told you the number of cases W has collected over the years, you wouldn't believe me), half used travel toothpaste/mouthwash/fill-in-the-blank---you name it, we had it under those cupboards.  I've been inspired by Pinterest.  Not so much to make over my bathroom, but to get things cleaned up.  We're hoping at some point in the near future to move into a larger home, and it's easier to get rid of things sooner rather than later, right?  I'll keep telling myself that.

While none of those items I collected today had any sentimental value, I know that sometimes, the things we hang onto are our versions of security blankets.  Maybe it's clothing that's too big for you, but disposing of it makes the fact that you're a slimmer version of yourself that much more of a reality.  And that can be scary sometimes.  It could even be something as trivial as a friend on Facebook, someone with whom you no longer have any desire to maintain a relationship with, or simply need to dispose of that false friendship to move on with your life.  I've gotten rid of both, past and present, and initially it feels scary but what I've been teaching myself is that I'm constantly trying to grow into a better version of me.

What are you hanging on to?  What would it take for you to let go, and be okay with letting go?  I challenge you this week to clean house---literally or metaphorically---and get rid of something that's holding you back from becoming the best YOU that you are capable of becoming.

Happy Monday!

Making Time

Schedule:  what is it?  According to a definition I found online, it's: A plan for carrying out a process or procedure, giving lists of intended events and times. In other words, it's something I need to create for myself when it comes to this blog.  I'm carving out an hour each day.  Yes, one ENTIRE hour, Monday through Friday, to think about the direction in which I want this blog to go.


Tomorrow, I'll start posting on my latest adventures and another pursuit I've been more diligent about:  One New Thing.  In my 30th year, I decided to create an ongoing and constantly expanding bucket list.  While I did try a lot of new things last year, with a full-time class schedule and work, I simply ran out of time to do the things I'd set out to do.  


In the new year, I revisited this list.  I revised it, removed some items, added others, and have been really consistent about trying One New Thing a week.  Some of them will be ongoing, while others will be a one time thing. 


Another thing I've been considering is moving this blog over to WordPress.  Many of the bloggers I follow also use WP, and I think it may be easier for me to learn and do some of the many fun things I've been wanting to do over there.


Until tomorrow,


Ryan

One New Thing...

One of the things I vowed to do last year was create a bucket list---at the time, I thought it would be fun to try and pursue completing this bucket list within 2011.  When I started checking items off that list, though, I realized that I enjoyed trying new things.  It took me outside of my comfort zone, and I had some really memorable experiences in the process.  Rather than have "The Year of 52" which is what I'd originally set out to do, I've turned it into a lifelong bucket list.  I have revised that list, removing some items and adding others.  A few of the items I'll get to experience in the next few months include using my passport, another activity to help me with my fear of heights (that will hopefully NOT result in broken digits), a few creative projects for other people (which means wiping the dust off my sewing machine, finally!), and trying out some new spa treatments.  I'd love to say that I'm going to take pictures of all of these, because another thing on my bucket list is to get comfortable with staging photos, etcetera; however, this won't be the case for some of the items. :)  Trust me on this one.

I foresee a photography class in my very near future, as I've always admired photography as an art form.  While one of my bucket list items was to run a half or full marathon, I've realized that my body is not cut out to do that sort of work---I know I can train for it, and that just because I don't think I'm a runner doesn't mean that I can't do that sort of intense physical activity.  I truly believe that my feet aren't cut out to endure that sort of repetitive punishment.  After suffering two broken feet in as many years, I'm vowing to run a race, any distance...and my friend from culinary school, JF, invited me to join Team Glitter for the Diva Dash here in Austin near the end of April.  THIS is totally out of my comfort zone.  It's an obstacle course, but not crazy like Tough Mudder, or some of the other obstacle courses out there that you're lucky to finish alive.  

One of the things I'd like to do here on this blog in the next year is share my "One New Thing" that I've tried during the week.  It may not be earth-shattering or monumental, but it will help me with my commitment to continue challenging myself on a personal basis.  

I'm thoroughly bummed that I didn't post pictures of our soup buffet feast from last Saturday night.  I had a periodontal laser therapy treatment twice last week, putting me on a liquid diet for about two weeks.  Most of my friends and family know that I've been trying to live mostly animal-product free, and I had the opportunity to experiment with smoothies and soups.  I came across a fabulous soup website last weekend, http://www.soupchick.com/ , and we tried a few of the blended soups.  I hadn't had lentil soup in over 20 years, and the recipe I used was so amazing that I ate it the next day.  Cold.  Straight from the refrigerator.  We also had a Roasted Butternut Squash and Apple Soup that was so yummy that my mouth is watering all over again.  The third was pretty unremarkable---but there's not much you can do to perk up Cauliflower and Potato Soup, amiright?

I baked W a loaf of Homestyle Whole Wheat Bread from the King Arthur Flour website that apparently I found a while ago, because I can't seem to find it on their website now!  It utilized mashed potato flakes, dry skim milk, and fresh orange juice.  It was a hit with The Husband, and I figured because I had the supplies that I'd bake another loaf while he was traveling.  Instead, I perused my cookbook collection and came across a Hearty Country Bread that starts with a sponge and is a labor intensive project...but one that I believe he'll thoroughly enjoy.

If you have a stand-up mixer and haven't yet challenged yourself to baking yeast bread from scratch (trust me, once you've made yeast bread with your mixer, you won't go back to using your hands), please do!  It's so simple, and the smell of fresh bread baking in the house is definitely worth the work.

Until next time....which will happen very quickly, as I've had a few other "one new thing" experiences this week! :)

Bear with me...no pun intended

I've had a lot of changes in the past few weeks---and just realized that my last post was stuck in drafts!

In any case, I'm fortunate enough to have the freedom in my schedule now to blog as frequently as I'd like.  This blog is going to have a dramatic overhaul.  Yes.  This time, I mean it.  I'll be blogging about everything.  Well...not EVERYTHING, because there's a fine line between "sharing" and "oversharing" and I don't think ANYONE wants or needs to hear about EVERYTHING.

In any case, I'll be pursuing my lifelong dream to become the younger, trendier version of Martha Stewart.   Okay, you got me there.  Not so much with the trendier---I'll leave that part up to my fashionisto (I know, I had to make it masculine, because HE is) husband.

Until next time...

The Phantom Blogger

I promised.

Last week, I publicly declared my commitment to blog once a week.  Yesterday, I finally discovered the wonderful world of Pinterest.  Just what I needed...another social media/networking tool to take my time???  Fortunately, I've found some great ideas that will hopefully not take too much time to complete before we leave for the holidays on the 24th.  With the canine kids.  On an airplane.  Am I nervous?  Totally.  We've never flown with dogs, and Felix is already nervous.  I mean, not about the flight, but on a daily basis, he exhibits very nervous behavior, as is typical of most dachsunds, or so we were told at the vet's office. 

In any case, I feel like I have a ton of things I need to do before we head up to WA, and one of the most important things is actually start and finish my Christmas shopping.  To say I was busy this semester is a bit of an understatement.  When William accepted his job with Gannett in September, he immediately started traveling on a weekly basis, and usually for 4 or 5 days at a time. 

Pretty much everyone who knows me knows I like to stick to a routine, and this fall has been no different---it's just that the routine is more typical of how it was when I lived in Spokane, on my own, with Belle and Gracie.  Up super early, maybe early gym session, sprint home to get ready for work (or now, school), head back home (or gym) or to pick the boys up from doggie daycare (aka the in-laws), study, and crash.  Somewhere in there is meal prep and sleep, but sleep was the least of my priorities with 5 classes, a job for the first half of the semester at the bakery, and trying to get the puppies out for exercise on a daily basis.  Add in Monday cookie-baking/delivery to the church office, occasional airport shuttles for William (either very, very early or on the way to class), and it's a little more clear as to why blogging fell by the wayside.

Tonight is my first Monday night off in almost 4 months, and I found myself watching the clock to make sure I was running on schedule.  Instead, I'm sitting here...peacefully blogging, eating my dinner, and getting ready to sit back down with the puppies to finish my Swedish mystery, Don't Look Back by Karin Fossum.  It's due today, even though I checked it out on Halloween.  The shame...to my defense, I did just start reading it the other day.  Yesterday?  Friday?  I don't remember.  Still on my agenda tonight---planning the Christmas menu, doing some online shopping, and then possibly getting my sore legs off the couch for some in-store purchases.  We'll see how far I get.

Until next week...